Our Wonderful Weekend!

Good Morning!
Our trip and my cousins wedding was so much fun! We didn’t want it to end! But who really wants a vacation to end? The drive down there was not bad at all, we talked and joked and I made an ass load of CD’s b4 we went down there. We stopped here and there to take pictures, eat and explore and we finally arrived at our hotel at about 4pm, checked in, grabbed a margarita for me and a beer for Hec and went up to our room. This room was insane! It was massive! The bathroom was the best, it had this amazing marble rounded shower that I fell in love with and decided I need to win the lotto so I can get this exact bathroom in my house! Lol. I was a little scared because I know when I was booking the hotel I was looking at pictures of the suites just for the fun of it and I was scared I booked us a suite (I sure as hell wouldn’t be able to pay for that! Lol) so if our room was that big I cant imagine what the suites were like. Anyways, we un packed and as we were doing so I looked out the window down at the pool and there were all my cousins waving up at us lol. they were staying at the same hotel because it was close to where my cousin Nicks wedding was going to be. So we threw on our bathing suits and went down and spent a few hours in the pool. Then we all got out and got ready for happy hour. The Hooper family never misses a happy hour! Lol. I don’t think the Marriott has ever seen a happy hour like that one lol. but they tolerated us so I thank them. They we moved the party upstairs to one of my cousins rooms (keep in mind I have 20 cousins all with their boyfriends/fiancés in tow, it was very fun!) we talked, sang, drank, drank summore, and laughed non stop a few hours later we all ended up back in the pool/hottub I am very surprised we never got kicked out or told to quite down or anything. Then again total for me and hecs room for 3 days was an about $700 so with all my cousins rooms, we gave them a pretty large sum of money so I’m sure they were keeping quite do to how large our group was. If it was just a few of us I’m sure they would have told us to shut up. But anyways it was a blast my cousins are insanely fun and I love them to death. Then me and Hec retired to our room. I though we would loooove our cal king bed, and it was the most comfortable bed I have ever been in but when we woke up the next morning he was on one side and I was on the other and it was a journey just to meet in the middle and cuddle up lol. though if I had the money I would not even hesitate to get a cal king bed lol.
The next day was all about a spa day, wineries and a romantic dinner just me and Hec all day. It was amazing. I love spending that time with him. It re-reminded me of why I fell in love with him. Fast forward to later that night, another cousin get together in the hotel room = fabulous fun!
The next day was the wedding. We all (cousins) went down and lounged in the pool for a few hours. The Wedding was at four so we had time to kill. At about 1 Hec and I walked over to the sushi place down the street and brought back food to the hotel to eat as we got ready. Then off to the wedding! It was SO SO HOT!! It was about 102 down there. At least it was a dry heat though, makes it a bit better than humid heat. But it actual cooled off (to like 85-90) pretty fast, there was a nice breeze. The wedding was gorgeous! The vineyard back drop was amazing. The reception was also outside but again, beautiful. We all had so much fun. I had a little too much fun lol. I must have taken down about 50bottles of wine to the dome. I'm usually really good when it comes to knowing my limits esp at a family wedding but one glass of wine turned into 1000000 real fast lol They shouldn’t make it taste so good! It doesn't help that they just keep refilling your glasses every time you take a sip lol but the good thing was I was not the only one who drank too much wine. Everyone did! haha. At least I had Hec to keep me in line hehe. Then after the fabulous wedding and non stop dancing we all headed over to the bride and grooms hotel and hung out in the bar. Then back to our hotel where everyone followed and we were at the pool yet again. I decided I had too much wine and called it a night and went to bed. Little did I know that all the females went to bed early and the guys who were smart and stuck to beer stayed up for days. Hec hit it off great with all my cousins they love him to death. Fast forward to the next day – another me and Hec day. Playing bonding loving all that good stuff! Then the next day was the drive home. Everyone left about the same time so we kept passing one another on 101N. then me and Hec see my cousin Matt, Heather, Kasey and Kevins car pulled over and as we drive by we see Kevin hanging out the car door puking his brains out. at least every one was feeling as hung over as we were lol.
Then as we got home we plopped in bed, ordered pizza and a ppv and passed out snuggled up. It was nice to be home.
So that was our wonderful vacation! It was so needed and though we are planning our next getaway to be just us two it was so fun to have everyone there and party and have an insane amount of fun with them.
Well tomorrow is the official court date. It should be the final ruling. I have prepared myself to know that it wont be. That scott will protest the mediation agreement he signed and agreed to and pull some bullshit stunt. He told me the other day that he would prefer if he only has her stay the night once a week every other week. He said that would be fair snc I only have her one night a week. I don’t know where he got that insane idea. I pick her up every day after work at 3:30-4:00 and she stays the night and I get her ready every morning at 6am and take her to her fathers. Where he takes her to school and only has her at home for about 1hour before he leaves for work. And that one hour is her napping then I have her every weekend morning noon and night with the expectation of this last weekend. He really has a twisted view on everything. Where on earth does he get that I only have her 1 day a week? So if he only wants to see her twice a month (his one day every other week) why doesn't he just give me full custody? Wouldn’t that make sense? No he just wants to keep playing games. He has YET to stick to the agreement we cam up on in mediation. He keeps changing it. I don’t have the energy or the will to fight with him about it. I'm fine having Kendra all day everyday. I was a stay at home mom fro 2&1/2 years with her. He went to school 6am-3pm and went to work at 3:30pm-11pm at night. I did it all on my own then and I can do it and would prefer to do it all on my own now. I'm just to tired of him and his games he plays. I have to patience for them anymore. I just want this to be done with so so bad. I want to be divorced from him, I want his games to stop. Ugh its so frustrating when I think about it so I will stop thinking about it. I have an amazing boyfriend, amazing friends, amazing family all who love and support me and I have the most amazing, incredible daughter who makes everything worth anything. I'm staying strong, working hard all for her and I would never have it any other way. Alright I have killed way too much time writing this when I should be playing catch-up on my work especially since I wont be here tomorrow. Toodles! *Muwah!*

nonsense

So I guess I was a bit harsh on the man in my life for annoying me. Lol. He is a wonderful guy, let me be clear about that. He treats me like a queen and treats my daughter as his own. I am a very lucky woman to have him in my life. However lucky or not, I am still allowed to be annoyed here and there lol. and yet I still am. He is still very stuck on the thought that he is going to lose me to one of my guy friends. I think I finally reassured him last night but we will see. Not only is it annoying but he has to have some sort of trust in me yenno. He says its because of how me and him hooked up but I have to remind him of the three other girls he fooled around with when he was with his ex. So really he cant use that excuse lol. I really hope he stops with this. Every time I get a text his eye brow raises and an alarm in his head goes off lol he will ask “whos that??” and I will simply tell him, Josh or Zach or who ever it is and if I say its josh or Zach he will kinda make a fuss about it and if its angel he will question if it is REALLY angel or not. Anyways, its annoying, it must stop nooowww.
In other news close friends of hecs family had their baby this morning, Josh’s Daughter is due any day, My cuzzos just had their baby last week, my other cousins are due in a few weeks and my aunt just found out she’s pregnant. Babys babys babys! Its contagious! (doing my cootie shot so I don’t catch the baby syndrome lol) But congrats to all. Children are amazing.
Ugh my allergies are kicking my ass!! I hope they go away before this trip on Thursday! Speaking of the trip we have been to the mall about every day this week getting new stuff for the trip. Then as soon as we get home we remember something that was really important that we forgot. So we have to go back the next day…like today we have to go back yet again. But I think I’m going to go to the Victoria Secret in walnut creek rather than the mall. The mall Victoria secret is small and has such a small selection. So WC it is. Plus we can hit Nordstroms and PF changes for dinner! I'm very happy I have lost 10lbs this month. Well okay 9lbs but I want to round up damnit! Lol. That’s why I LOVE weight watchers. I lose weight super fast and don’t really gain it back. It is so much easier to lose weight now that im not living with hecs picky ass. Meat, cheeses, fried food, no veggies. And granted I tried but after a 9 hour day at work, came home, cleaned, took care of Kendra I was too tired to cook two dinners so I would give in and eat whatever he wanted to eat. But now I’m back on track yee!
Alrighty well more later. Toodles!

Jealousy

Good Morning –

6 days until me and Hecs vacation to Paso Robles! We went shopping last night and got new clothes, hats (him), shoes (me) for the trip. I cant wait. I think this trip will be great, we both need a break. He has been overly cautious about “losing” me lately. I didn’t pay much attention to it at first, in fact it was rather charming but now its gotten to the point where its insanely annoying. Every time we are together he is questioning me in regards to if there is another guy in my life. He does it in a joking way but I know he is worried for some reason. Finally last night I had to call him out on it. I called him last night before I was going to bed just to say good night and that I love him and he says “are you sure your going to bed? You don’t sound like you are going to bed” so I said “wtf? What should I sound like when I’m about to go to bed” he just said that I don’t sound tired, which was silly because I was exhausted! I got up at 5am went to work and after work went straight to his sisters to help watch the kids and then after his mother got there to pick up the kids I went straight to the mall and me and Hec were there shopping until 8pm. That’s like what 16 busy hours and in stilettos even? I don’t care who you are, that would make you tired! lol if nothing else your feet will be so exhausted that they will force you to lay down> so anyways I drifted…I had to finally tell him that this whole not trusting me bull shit has to stop. He said he cant help if he is afraid to lose me, so I had to explain that he will lose me a lot faster if every time we are together I’m getting interrogated. I explained how its gotten to the point where I don’t even call him while I’m driving (illegal anyways I know) because he will (in a joking yet serious way) inquire as to where I’m going and basically make the allegations that I’m going over to a guys house. During our conversation about him not having trust he said its not that he doesn't trust me but rather that he is second guessing himself… as I told him, its not that he is second guessing himself, he is second guessing me and that’s not cool. He explained to me why he has these concerns. It kind of goes way back, even in high school he would see my guy friends fall in love with me hard and fast. He has seen a few of his friends do it as well, even when me and him were just friends 2 years ago, he saw Scotts friends fall for me. I see all this too. I don’t know what it is, im not that special, I don’t come off overly whorey where they think they can get in my pants, Though I love my body and every shape and part on it I don’t have the perfect body, I can be over barring and I speak my mind which often makes me put my foot in my mouth…I don’t know why, but I have seen it too. I even told Hec when we first started talking in liked December of 2008 “Just Don’t fall in love with me” because I was scared of messing up our friendship, of messing up his relationship, of messing up my marriage (which was already in the shitter but I had convinced my self otherwise) Even my best friend Ter was talking to him “mano-e-mano” one night while we were out and he told him that I’m one of those girls and have something that rips guys hearts out and throws it on the ground and walks away with that smile of hers.. I think there might have been a nicer way to say that but whatever lol. So anyways Hec was explaining this to me and is afraid that two of my best guy friends Josh and Zach will fall in love with me like Hec did and that I will leave Hec (like I left Scott) for one of them. He said he knows me and he knows that I love the thrill and excitement of it all, and granted that is very very true. But I left Scott because I saw him leave Anna and it kind of opened my eyes to the fact that I don’t have to be stuck in a bad relationship. I have the right to be happy. So I left Scott. I didn’t leave Scott FOR Hec. I left Scott for myself. So I could find out who I am apart from being Scotts wife and the mother of his child. I did that. I love that I have found me again. I don’t need some new relationship to make me feel wanted. Hec does a fine job of that anyways. SO basically Hector agreed to trust me more. He is still weary of Josh and Zach. They are really close friends of mine and we talk every day. But That does not mean I want to Marry them and spend the rest of my life with them and raise 1000 kids with them Like I want to do with Hec. Alright back to work! I hope he can suck it up and stop being a baby about this. Im an adult, Im independent, thats something he needs to understand. I know he dosent have me comming home to him every day after work anymore or his even older life of someone there with his 27/7. That was somthing he had to get used to when we first got together too, was that I like to go out with my friends ALONEE. and I love my alone time period lol. But now he needs to realize that just becuase I have more time to be alone, dosent mean im off falling madley in love with eveyr guy who looks my way. its silly. very silly. If he cant suck this up then I think there will be many more problems ahead. Im not the kind of girl to sit around be accused of things im not doing or even the kind of girl that will just sit at home when i have spare time, he knows that, he just needs to accept it. I love him, i want him forever. okay i gotta get some work done lol Happy Friday! More later im sure!!