Over it...for one and for all!

So this weekend was a very long fun interesting one.
Friday night I had Hec over and of course he gets into his jealous modes where he thinks that I'm fucking every man alive. I have no idea where he gets this notion from. I have NEVER cheated on him. We had that break for a month or so and yeah I went out on two dates. Nothing special just me and a friend saying hey, why don’t we go see a movie and get dinner. I don’t think wither of us even considered it a date. But anyways, every text I get, (I text a lot btw) from any of my girlfriends, guy friends who ever, Hector throws a fit thinking I MUST be fucking them. Its gotten to the point where I know he will bitch so its like whatever. Even if I don’t respond to texts, he will hear my phone beep and bitch bitch groan groan, bitch bitch ugh its no annoying! So Friday, I'm not even responding to texts from friends when I receive them, I'm trying to make it a point that im spending time with him, but of corse im not going to tell all my friends “hey stop texting me so Hec wont bitch” So Hec gets drunk, throws a fit about the people texting me. I even show him that its just girlfriends but he just throws a fit. So I just say “whatever, I don’t want to fight, im going to bed.” Well about 3am a wake up and notice Hec in is in bed with me and he quickly hid something under his pillow. So of course I reach to see what it is. Its my friggin cell phone!!! He had texted one of my best guy friends. However my inbox messages were deleted and all that was in my outbox was “right, im sure she doesn't even know you are writing this, real mature, great boyfriend you are” From my friend Josh. So text josh and ask him what Hec said. After he confirmed it was me lol. he forwarded the texts that hector sent to him. Hec said basically to back off because I'm with him (Hec) and that I sucked his dick all night long. WTF!?!?! Who says that? I was Infuriated. Not only did he text thru my phone to one of my friends. He embarrassed me and he had to put Josh in an odd position and just plain who does that?!?! SO I told him to sleep on the couch. I was so over it and If it wasn’t that his birthday was on Monday (yesterday) I would have left in a second and never talked to him. He is just becoming this Jealous, mean, selfish person. This is NOT the loving, romantic, sweet, giving, hot hector I fell in love with. And im sorry, maybe its because of my bad marriage and how un happy I was, I will not put myself through something like that again. I have my nanas 80th bday party to go to on Saturday and though I do not want to bring him because I need Hec to see that I'm not going to put up with these childish games he is putting on, at the same time I don’t want my whole family asking questions as so why Hectors not there, ect. They love him. And I have a BIG family – that would be a lot of questions. Idk. I'm just sick of it all. I'm better than this and I deserve better.
And then this leads me to Sunday night. My Josh calls, he knows I’m a bit upset and he wants to console me and give me advice yada yada. So he calls at 11pm…the next thing I know, my 5:30am alarm for work is going off! We were on the phone from 11 to 6am. I have NEVER talked to someone that long. Ever. It was never awkward, never unpleasant. We just talked forever about everything. I told him things I haven’t really told anyone but he made it so comfortable and so fun. He is very different from all the guys I have been with and maybe that’s good. A part of me thinks we could never work but that’s just me basing it off bad relationships in the past. We both have young daughters and work full time, it would be hard. But anyways im getting WAYY ahead of myself. He said he’s falling for me hard. I don’t know that I'm ready for that. I mean shit, I haven’t even shaken Hec off. Idk. I think that when I officially break up with hector that I will just be single for a while. I keep saying that and then I keep taking hector back but damn, how many chances am I going to give him? Our entire relationship has been about him fucking up and then kissing my ass to win me over again lol I like the kissing ass part. We had an amazing like 4months in the middle of all this drama where we were perfect. We were amazing and that was how love is supposed to be. But Hec gets carried away and lost and all im doing is finding him, bringing him back to reality and then watching him MAKE himself lost again. I'm tired of it. I really am.