The first hearing is tomorrow

Good Morning!
I am so tired today! I stayed up super late with Hec last night. I always am out by like 930 at the latest but I decided to be nice and stay up with him till about 12:30am and for me that’s too late! I have to wake up at 5…if I did the math correctly I only got about 4 hours of sleep. That is no good. No good at all! Lol But I am going out to lunch with friends and after I have a meeting at 1:30 at work and then at 2pm I have a phone meeting with my attorney. Yikes the fist official court date is tomorrow!! I am so nervous! I don’t know why, I have been to court before many times for other people, for myself but for some reason I have never been as nervous as I am now. Maybe because it has to do with my little girl. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I don’t want to hurt Scott. Who knows. Scott has been good lately but you know him, off and on. I'm just scared that he will be heart broken. I hope and pray that he just sees this as a push in the right direction. Apparently he is smoking Cigarettes again. I think that is so so so nasty. Not only does it make you stink and turn your teeth yellow but it’s not good for Kendra. I know he would never smoke in front of her but still, its not a good example at all to set for her… but there is not one thing I can do about it. Slowly killing yourself and telling your kids its okay to do the same is somehow perfectly legal. *sigh*
Thank god my mom is coming with me. I would want hector there but I think that having him come would be totally disrespectful and almost a slap in the face (in a non productive way) to Scott. So he is going to stay home and watch Kendra. My mama is my best friend and rock though so It will be good having her around…though it just occurred to me she always makes me cry. I'm a pretty tough cookie and don’t cry too often. I can usually hold it in but then my mom will just have to look at me or call and ask what’s wrong and I just burst out into tears and tell her everything and then she always makes it better. Even if its just a simple “it will be okay lovebug”. I'm all butterflies just thinking about tomorrow. I am sure it will go fine though, When I went to the orientation at the court house the guy who was checking us in asked who my attorney was and I said “Lisa Ivancich” and he said, and I quote “wow – Well then, I wont wish you luck, you don’t need luck, You have Ivancich” That made me feel a bit better. Lol. I was a little nervous about taking her on as my attorney because the majority of her cases are workers comp ect. But then I read up on her, talked to a few clerks and everyone has said that she is amazing and a tough cookie. She seems that way, she’s a judge part time so I am confident that she knows what she’s doing lol. okay well I am going to go back to working now Toodles!