Good Morning…well afternoon now.
I am so exited – just had a business meeting with some clients and it went great! I am really proud of how well I did on my first client meeting! Go me! We were all going to meet at JFK and discuss a job and all that jazz so I just had Hec drop me off at my moms on his way to work so I can get ready here and then walk over to JFK, its like 10 steps away. But I was soo nervous, but at 7:30 came around I stuffed my pumps into my purse, threw on the flip flops and walked over to the meeting place. I probably looked funny while walking in professional clothes and then silver sparkly flip flops. I think I changed back into the heels before anyone saw. But it went great and fast and now I get to take the rest of the day off. I wish I could be with hec today. Today is the one year anniversary of his cousins, Jason Gamino, Murder. I remember this day very vividly a year ago and how it affected hec when he got the news. He had a job out in south san fran so he was near the cemetery and is meeting up with the family now.
This weekend was fun. Friday…hmm what the heck did we do Friday?! Lol I don’t know! Total mind blank. Work and then…who knows, we will pretend that we flew to Paris to have dinner. Yeah that sounds good. Lol. Then Saturday Scott calls at 9am and texts over and over that he is dropping Kendra off at 10. Bottom line. This is his weekend for Kendra, we had her 3 weekends in a row and granted I love having my girl but we had made plans already because we THOUGHT he was going to take her for the weekend. So then I call him back and hes yelling about how “no the plan is I watch her when you work and you watch her when I work. Its that fuckin simple…” and that would be fine and we could somehow work that out however he pulls this at the last second and I still watch her when hes not working and watch her when he is working so suddenly pulling this shit doesn’t make sense. Really all this was just about him trying to be in control. Trying to somehow still make me upset and make me angry. So I had to get up, make a million calls to everyone and finally got it worked out with my brother watching Kendra until 5 and then my dad watching her until 10 when scott picked her up. Its just annoying that even on his weekends with her I am responsible for finding a babysitter. That wouldn’t be bad at all but the way he asks..no demands and yells and demines and forces me into having to do it. I know he is hurting because he and Amy are not working out. She told him she just wants to be friends. I finally asked him if maybe he is starting to see that the way he treats people has a direct effect on why the last few girlfriends and myself cant handle being with him. I was telling him to not blame himself but rather take all this as a learning experience to better himself. Scott just dosent want to see it. He really truly doesn’t see how he treats people. How he demands they jump when he says jump but yet he wont do anything for them but criticize and hurt them and try to belittle them. Its sad because he is a great guy but he is just so covered by anger. Its frustrating because I keep trying to help and get him to see but he refuses. I feel bad for him but there is just nothing I can do anymore. It sucks.
But then the rest of the day we lounged and watched movies and played games then we went out for a super fun night out. A club for drinks and then to his brothers house for a party. It was a lot of fun. Then home for our own fun, after all it was our first free weekend in a while. :D :D no wait that’s what we did on Friday!! Lol lol lol Friday we did all of that. Saturday we went to Hecs parents house for a bbq. We were thinking that would be the day that hecs brother would tell his parents that he and his girl Maria are having a baby in 3 or 4 months but nope he chickened out lol. Me and Maria were talking for hella days about how she is leaving it up to them. But shes got a cute belly going now and its to hard to hide, I’m surprised no one noticed. But hopefully he tells them soon, you cant hide a bally for too long. Sunday we were at my mamas for a bbq. My brother was watching Kendra while Scott was at work but he had to leave at 3 so on our way over to my moms I picked her up because I get her at 530 on Sundays on scotts weekends with her so I didn’t mind at all a few hours earlier but then he calls saying he is going to call the cops because I kidnapped her blah blah. Wtf!? So he makes this big deal about how he had something planned and needs to pick her up now or hes going to be late. So I say OKAY, shes here when your ready to pick her up. So two hours later he shows up to pick her up. Even though he made a huge huge deal about how he has to be somewhere right then and there (2 hours ago) then he calls an hour later and is ready to drop her off. Again, the control issue. Its annoying as hell! If he wasn’t such an asshole about it, yenno just say please and thank you here and there it wouldn’t be so frustrating! Grrr. Lol
Oh well alright I’m off to enjoy my lifetime movie and the rest of my Monday off. Tata sex kittens!
Monday, May 18, 2009
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