Love me hate me say what you want about me..

I would just like to be clear on something I'm not here to prove myself, not here to make a point I’m not here to see certain people fail or succeed or make an ass of themselves. I’m here because I want to be, I’m writing and rambling on and on about stupid things, important things, things that make no sense, because I want to, because I need/want a place to vent and ramble on about nonsense. There are certain people that are hoping that I mess up, trying to make themselves believe I am not happy, trying to find any and every flaw in everything I write, say or do. But by all means, do what you have to do. I know you hate me. For reason I’m not sure of. I wasn’t the one who fucked everything up, I’m not the one who continues to fuck everything up but yet blame everyone around me, I’m not the one so lost in who I am that I have to be who everyone wants me to be, I’m not the one with no ounce of responsibility in life yet does nothing with life to better my life and future. I'm not the one making up invisible people lol lol lol. I don’t have much against you, you hurt me back then but whatever, I’m a big enough person to say whateve. People fuck up. I never hurt you, I never did anything malicious despite what you think. Shit happens in life and for some reason you hate me. That’s fine, hate me. But why talk shit and make things up? Oh that’s right because that’s the one thing you CAN do in life. Make shit up. I forgot how good you were at that though we have a good laugh at it many times. I doubt I’m even going to publish this because there is no point in anyone seeing it, most who read these are people I know in real life and know what REALLY went down a year ago (yes, not the story you make yourself believe and make your friends believe) so they already know. And the other people that read and respond to my blogs (btw I heart you guys and I’m glad I’m helping the few of you get through your divorce/kids/drama in life) I really just don’t feel like explaining it all to them lol. They say when people act the way you do it’s because they are jealous. I don’t know if you are jealous or not, probably not. I think you are just hurt. Hurt that you know you lost something so amazing and you could have had it back but you kept doing the same shit, I think you are hurt because you know you aren’t doing anything in life and know you could be doing so much more because you are smart and beautiful but because you are scared, you wont even try to succeed in all the things you can. However that’s just what I see. Ugh okay whatever I’m done plus I have to work on soo0o0omthing this morning snc I’m taking a half day. Lol I guess I will publish this and if anyone’s extremely confused you done gots my email address.
“Love me, hate me, say what you want about me…” I have that song stuck in my head and it seem a very appropriate song for right now lol.